par·ox·ysm

even my horoscope says

today is a bad week, to lay low

why am i so emotional

why am i crying all the time

i feel terrible

just terrible

it better be this fucking period i swear

— 14 hours ago

arabbabydoll:

Ali Michael shot by Petra Collins for Oyster Magazine.

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— 17 hours ago with 4397 notes
Watching Disney

And realizing again I’ll die one day and all of a sudden I’m gripped with the fear of not being, of oblivion

Hellfire doesn’t scare me as much as nothingness does

I don’t want to die not yet not soon not ever—

But I think I’d tire of forever

A psychic once said the afterlife is whatever we want to make of it

And I think I’d want to exist some more

Fly around and watch because I love to watch people, I never get them but I want to

I want to see my father once more and my mother and brother and my friends

And then I think to sleep forever would be okay

I had to be born- I haven’t always existed, I don’t think

It doesn’t frighten me to know at a point I never was: consciousness took care of itself

When I die I figure it’ll take care of itself again

Eternity in an instant

Sleep sleep forever

The only thing id stick around to tell you is that I love you

And that it’ll work out

— 1 day ago with 1 note
"I enjoy controlled loneliness. I like wandering around the city alone. I’m not afraid of coming back to an empty flat and lying down in an empty bed. I’m afraid of having no one to miss, of having no one to love."
Kuba Wojewodzki, Polish journalist and comedian.  (via thatkindofwoman)

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welladjustedqueerkids:

wonderfulmachine:

Jared Leeds shoots Top Chef Kristen Kish for Inked Magazine.

It has been brought to my attention (repeatedly) that I am neglecting my duties as a co-moderator. (Apparently saving a bunch of things as drafts and never posting them is not helpful.)

Anyway, I have been holding on to this, because OMG, Kristen Kish came out as having a girlfriend! 

To my knowledge, she has not publicly said how she identifies yet, but it is so great to see a badass Asian chef who is into women. Also, she has cool hair. Also, integrity! (She was eliminated during Restaurant Wars for someone else’s mistake, but then won Last Chance Kitchen and came back and won her season.) Watching Kristen compete was a constant debate of “Do I want to date her or be her?” Still not sure.

I grew up watching cooking shows on PBS, until we finally got cable in high school, but Martin Yan was never exactly relatable as a role model. So Kristen coming out was all kinds of wonderful and joyous, and so exciting for her! I have many more thoughts about representation and coming out and diaspora and Korean adoptees.

In any case, YAY!

- A

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— 1 day ago with 394 notes
#CUTIEEEE 
hrselover5:

Ali Michael | Jalous Mag April ‘14

hrselover5:

Ali Michael | Jalous Mag April ‘14

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controlled-dysphoria:

Angel on fire - Antony and the Johnsons

Didn’t watch the movie but this song is s0 pretty

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